a date decide my future...1 JULY 2009

yaaa..i know...everyone having right 2 decide their own future ...
but really i can ???
I DON'T KNOW...

i know u r for my own good...
u wan me can hv a stable life in my future...
but u never think that am i really like ur arrangement...
can i refuse it ??
i don't like 2 argue with u n mum...
i got my own notion wanna tell u n mum...
but i didn't do so..
coz i know u both will reject it...

i really don't like the arrangement u hv made 4 me...
even i don't know it is right or not..
i will regret in the future or not...
confused.....
but the only thing i know now is i don't wan 2 accept the arrangement..
i will not happy...

soo...please...if i really got it...don't force me 2 accept it..
i want 2 decide my own future...
juz show ur mental support...
that's enough..thanks